size drop !!! wooohooo!!

After slumming it in my baggy size 18 jeans for the past few weeks, I finally decided to 'brave it' this morning and try on the size 16's that nan bought me for my birthday last September, there was no way I was getting them on last year, and even in February couldn't get them on, so was expecting disappointment again, but NOOOO I got them ON! They fit, with EASE, and with a BELT tooo, soooo very very pleased :)

Still longing for the day I'll be able to get into a 10-12 again but for now, for today I am a very happy girl to get down into a 16 again :)

My next two goals are to get into the 12 stone Mark and then to get to 12 stone 3, which is what Chris's highest weight was when he started, obviously still not great weights, but a lifetime away from starting at an elephant-like 17 stone (it makes me feel physically sick to say that figure or even type it, I am ashamed and embarrased to have ever got to that size/weight. Even though I can't see much of a difference in the mirror, and I wish I could, there must be a big difference as I have lost over 2 Alex's in weight so far! The future still worries me with what to do with contraception and so on, as I know how badly it affects my weight, but I will have to deal with that when it comes to it. I still don't have normal monthlies as it is, so there is no point in even considering anything at this moment in time. For now I just want to keep going down the scales, for right now, at this moment in time, I still find it very hard to believe I will ever see 10 stone 1 - my BMI goal, or 9 stone 10 - my personal goal on the scales, as much as I really really want to.)

Updated and More Reasons to lose Weight

1. Make Chris Proud
2. Make family proud
3. Feel better in sleeveless or short sleeve top
4. Look ok in swimwear
5. Fit into designer clothing
6. Look better in pictures
7. Move attention from flab to figure
8. Live healthier life
9. Be able to run in a charity event.
10. Wear a wider style range of clothing (not just what fits)
11. Wear dresses/skirts with confidence
12. Be able to swim in public and not care
13. Reduce chances of getting bigger
14. Not feel awkward when clothes shopping
15. Increase chances of shops having your size in store
16. Walk along a beach on holiday and feel proud of your body in swimwear
17. Stop jiggling!
18. Like your own reflection
19. The smaller you are, the cheaper it is to get drunk lol
20. Walk up hills and not want to sit down half way up it
21. Sunbath in public
22. Buy lingerie without getting weird looks
23. When people start talking about weight loss, not to feel like they mean you
24. Make friends/family pleased that you are doing something about your weight, not just talking about it
25. Be happy to be photographed
26. Wear a bra that actually fits
27. Show off legs, not monstor ham thighs
28. Don't fear onset of summer clothing
29. Say weight out loud with pride
30. Help other overweight people who are in the same situation you where
31. Don't wonder if people are saying "Why is HE with HER?"
32. Go out in public and not care what looks you get
33. Wear a low cut sweater and show your collerbones
34. Wear shorts in the summer
35. Increase feelings of self worth
36. GET ON WITH LIFE AND ENJOY IT!!!

Post Holiday :)

Well again, time has taken over and I haven't had much chance to update my blog, but here goes.
Well I went away on holiday and did 810 calories for a week, came back and weighed in and lost 4 3/4lbs! Very very pleased with that. It takes me down to 13 st 7 1/2. So I'm about half way there now to my BMI and then probably about another 4lbs after that to the weight I'd like to be, to be comfy at, 9 stone 10 ish - I don't remember ever seeing 9 stone something on the scales, so it would be a shock to see it one day!
10stone 1 is my aim to hit my healthy BMI and is my first and biggest aim, 3 stone 7 1/2lbs to go for that, which after having 7 stone to lose, seems a lot lot less to go now, although still a long way to go.

Have a big family gathering for a sad event, to scatter my uncle's ashes in May, and would really like to shift another stone by then, if not a bit more would be nice, just to really give that shock factor to those people that I wont have seen since Xmas when I was that SHOCKING and HORRID 17 stone! :( NEVER EVER AGAIN !

My little boy alex has Gastroenteritis at the moment, so is really poorly, and I feel really sorry for him, hoping he will improve in the next few days. (get well soon little man, mummy loves you lots and lots!! xxxx)